Mental breakdown from Pfizer vaccine: request for advice

[recreationalwreck]

So,

I got the Pfizer vaccine around March and then I was snuffed. I'm either whacked out or on the cusp of a vegetative state. I've done thousands of hours of research on how this perverted pseudo-reality could've come to pass and have determined that it's either brain inflammation, made-up BS, or a destabilizing Se hypersensitivity to the energetic disturbances wrought by spike-protein mediated epigenetic interference and chance retrotransposon DNA rearrangements (see: Doerfler, Virus Research), amplified by a decisive coup to all erroneous Fi notions of self-persistence.

Everything about Se and possibly Fi has to do with dealing in reality directly at the level of the substrate, using waveforms. All properties and states of affairs have an analog in energy patterns, allowing the major informational content about the universe to be understood through shortcuts. What is A B C D at the level of abstracted systems, and AB CD at the level of language approximations, is one unit ABCD at the level of the substrate, and this can be instantly known through a song of a demonstrative structure or direct exposure. The Fi user will have a resident frequency and the Se user will have a broad range of perceptible frequencies which are periodically adopted through synchronous oscillation. Once you encounter each, it's part of your log of states, recognized instantaneously and selectively-embodied wherever it arises, even subtly or in combination, again. The majority of the Se-user's time is spent inventorying states through momentary embodiment, whether or not that's consciously intended.

Both types continuously receive energetic input which is derived from the objective constitutional properties of the source, although the Fi user will assign a valence to each microband of the energy while the Se user will apprehend it as-is. Most energy that is picked up will be coming from other humans, the source being the quantum states of their cells especially in the central nervous system, which is largely if not completely influenced by DNA. So both Se and Fi can be thought of, in part, as DNA perception and analysis functions. The vibe that a person or place will give off is basically its vibrational constitution, which is a proxy of its general constitution, which is governed by its fundamental constituents. By using these functions, you can get at what people and things are comprised of, and what state they're in, and how that relates to the range of possible states.

Anyway, from what I can tell, I'm fucked. Some are going to take to these types of medical interventions well while reporting no effects, and some are going to get psyched out. If you're energy sensitive and introducing any foreign liquids into your body, you might notice something different that you don't like. I can't say that this vaccine was supposed to affect my DNA, but it seems to have initiated genetic changes, and I'm really not alright.

The Fi part of it is, I was attached to this substance that I had, and now I don't have it. I can't claim that it'll never come back, but it's been 8 months. I've had concussions, depression, medications and such, even COVID, but the Substance has never fundamentally changed. Now, somehow, it's not here. I also am finding that Se is not working, or has nothing to work on, because I'm out of range. If my range of frequencies was from say 0 to 10,000 atomic units...it's now 0 to 12. I still know what everything is from memory, but I can't really perceive anything new. And when I do, I don't interact with it. The energetic overlay of things has disappeared, leaving bare arrangements of matter. When I'm sitting in a room, I'm sitting in a room. It's not like a slice of the interdimensional membrane, or whatever. Reality before was maybe 85% energy, 10% abstractions, and 5% body, but now, it's abstractions and body with a very minimal amount of energy still appearing. What is this? I've considered things like brain damage. But an MRI was clear. And you don't need high cognitive function to sense, as it happens with every cell in your body including whatever neurons you have left over at any given time. The hourly oscillation game has stopped. Typically I walk around for 4-14 hours a day to absorb reality, in surround-sound headphones that help with cinematic experience construction and allow for quick hypnosis-lite. When I go through a place that's in state A, for example, I defer to playlist 342 which corresponds to property 424 and sync my energy, then pass. But these days, not only can I not sync, I don't even perceive the state of the environment itself. If I try to put on 342, I'm a fraud. It doesn't work. It seems that I'm blocked from accessing or unable to access whatever is analogous to the collective unconscious to embody concepts (Se-Ni) or sensibilities (Se-Fi-Ni). There's a blanket moratorium on flow. Connection, immersion, oneness, presence, intuition, sentience, hyperreality, power, grip, alignment. Fucking alignment. I had concluded that there was monism, and I still believe this, but I wouldn't be able to guess- it's as if I've inadvertently transferred myself to a different substrate.

It seems that either this has lurched me so far out of homeostasis that the whole system has stopped operating, I'm depressed, I have myalgic encephalomyelitis otherwise known as ME/CFS, or I actually don't have the perceptual faculties I once did because I've lost the genetic structure I needed to be in sync with the majority of all biotic life. I'm not willing to accept these conditions. I'm not that conscious anymore and everyone has the gall to be disrespectfully eating and breathing as if they don't understand that God is in the ICU! How do I make it go away? How do I cope? What's a quick and relatively painless method of suicide that costs less than 10 dollars? All advice accepted and most welcome.

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[fayest42]

@recreational-wreck It's clear that you're going through something very difficult. I hope that you have access to a therapist or other mental health services. If you are contemplating suicide, remember that it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and please either call someone you know and can trust or call a suicide hotline. The number for the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is 800-273-8255.

[recreationalwreck]

@fayest42 Yeahhhh I'm actually embarrassed by this now but I can't delete it so it is what it IS. I'm sure everyone else who took this vax was absolutely fine as usual. Thanks for the goodwill I guuuuuuuuuuess

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[Elsie]

"I'm sure everyone else who took this vax was absolutely fine as usual."

BOY DO I HAVE A STORY TO TELL YOU
into the PrivateMessages u go

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[Rennie]

This is a dirty drug setup to push a dirty agenda! Praying for you over there recreationwreck.

That vaccine is taking more people out than Flu'vid . I know a few victims too.

You're not the first and no doubt won't be the last. Unfortunately I don't have any scientific answers, solutions for tampering with MRNA and DNA (what the vaccines are doing) a way beyond my understanding.

I can only send you a fist ✊? of solidarity and prayer ?? of get well!

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