As a FiSe II– you are a Compass type with an Explorer development. Your mind begins from a place of withdrawal, reservation and meticulous analysis of reality in order to answer fundamental questions of inner alignment, purpose and the universe. By reflecting on the essential nature of reality, you have an intrinsic sense of what the answers may be and pursue those pathways with fervor. Questions may crop up related to what the purpose of living is and whether you feel you are living in true alignment to that higher purpose within you. And while you do linger on these intellectual questions a lot, your investigation of true reality more often comes in the form of an artistic exploration, such as via poems, lyric writing, paintings,music, dance or fashion, wherein the art-form becomes the vehicle by which those core realizations can radiate out into the world.
Your exploration of ideas will tend to be vivid, visceral and will pull you deep into a flow state. Your attention is channeled towards a physical immersion into the subject at hand, giving you an acute hyper-focus that’s also charged with a sensual energy. Your bodily presence and intensity is part of everything you do, making you a manifestation of realism and a way to convey how reality truly is felt and lived. But in all this activity, what you desire is first to understand what the highest principles are, and then to live true to that awareness through your manifestation. This higher value can take many different forms, such as being the elevation of beauty, goodness, honesty or consciousness – each of which may become the focus and thematic nexus to your work.
However, you are also very perfectionist about this and will take your time with your writings, songs or crafts – making sure each work is as representative as possible of the ineffable, core idea that exists in your mind. If that idea isn’t manifesting justly, then you’ll hesitate to put it into the world. This inescapably makes you slower than others at most tasks, as you invest extra in a precision which others are much freer to cut short for the sake of practicality. You are not the most practical creature, and your values for true representation and precision are at odds with a mechanical world that values results, bottom-lines, efficiency and economy. Your organizational skills may be present only in a few niche places that you personally care about, such as in maintaining routine hygiene, removing desk clutter and being a minimalist in your home. In these little areas you can appear obsessive-compulsive towards ordering things just the way you want them. However, you’re not the most industrial personality, and making a living represents a powerful challenge to you since working outside of your very niche passions will feel like a suffocation and a sin to your essence. Worse still, productive output is something that must happen organically and unforced for you. You feel at your best when you connect intimately to a seamless flow, where your exploration of the environment happens in real-time with no friction,hesitation or delays between “self” and “world.”
But this ideal state is not always easy to attain and requires being sensitively primed for it. Moments of stress or lack of clarity lead to a paralysis and blocking of flow. When you’re not flowing, you will tend to revert back to your isolationist tendencies, which emerge from your innate reservation and privacy. In this state you resist the world and retain your own mental autonomy, coveting your own resources and having a cognitive barrier between the inner and outer. You can easily exist in this state for long periods of time if you allow it, but will ultimately feel a hollowness emerge from it since it’s imperative to you that you retain both your mental autonomy, as well as the capacity to interface with the world meaningfully through expression.Another personal struggle will exist in you when it comes to implementing practical structures into the world. Although your self-expression represents one form of embodiment of truth, the ideological and political spheres will also evoke a deep desire for the tangible elevation of humanity towards your higher principles of being. But your own attitude will be faint and internalized, making it difficult to compete in the political sphere or make an impact in the big executive world in the way that it forces solutions to arise. Nonetheless, that won’t stop you from desiring to create your own personal microcosm, a house or studio, that operates by your specific principles and which contains the essential elements to a place you can truly call “home.” This yearning for home will also contain a more abstract aspiration for a holistic, spiritual synchronicity with the cosmos – the call towards a state of being where your life, your body and soul are moving in perfect rhythm with something numinous that exists beyond you. And while the free-spirited part of you will very much resists this idea out of a fear of settling into a life that’s not “perfect” in its expression of your desires, this yearning will represent the hidden motivation of your unconscious.
Seelie > Unseelie:
As for your emotional disposition, if you are seelie your demeanor will appear naturally vulnerable, gentle and disarming. People may describe you as sensitive, compassionate, and attuned to your femininity. You may radiate out emotions through a whispery voice, a bashfulness of the body and giddy giggles. And although this may provoke a level of criticism from tough-skinned people who don’t understand you, your ability to be open-hearted to life and humanity remains uncompromised. Your attitude remains seelie so long as it is permeable to others, whether voluntarily or not. Thus, the possession of a seelie attitude will cause you to be deeply affected by life in both positive and negative ways, giving rise to acute highs and lows. The capacity to feel radiant joy comes at the cost of also feeling intense sorrows, making you more highly attuned to pain. This same experience of pain will lead to a heightened sense of empathy both for humans and other animal species. In some cases, an affinity develops for nature and the divinity within each living being. This can lead to a nurturing impulse towards plant and animal life.
Unseelie > Seelie:
As for your emotional disposition, if you are unseelie you are far from a sentimentalist and have a more blunt and assertive attitude. You’re not afraid to make critical opinions of others, and to call out lies and hypocrisies where you see them. This can give you an “abrasive” attitude and others may experience you as being touchy and haughty. And while some may see your words as harsh, you ultimately seek fairness and justice which requires forthrightness. You value not beating around the bush, and hearts that express what they truly feel.Yet, your Fi’s sensitivity is never truly gone. Although you prefer to stand your own intellectual ground, your high Fi values will manifest in your personal approaches to life. Rather than approaching matters from a hands-off third person view, it matters in a powerful way that you have a subjective ethical alignment with the topic at hand. You may protest against certain personalities due to a personal disgust felt against them, or may reject hypotheses that are in violation of some essential living ethic. And in this way, you still reveal your Fi’s ethical priority.