As an SeFi I— you are an Explorer type, inescapably driven towards the proactive absorption of information. Your relationship to the world is mediated by an insatiable curiosity, a restless itch to peek into new things and experiment with a variety of experiences – whether they be deeply touching, entertaining, humorous or shocking. This proclivity towards immersive experiences can lead them to suck you in, loosening your grip on other matters until you find yourself in a different place or time without noticing how your investigative journey lead you there. Your exploration of ideas will tend to be vivid, visceral and will pull you deep into a flow state. Your attention is channeled towards a physical immersion into the subject at hand, giving you an acute hyper-focus that’s also charged with a sensual energy. Your bodily presence and intensity is part of everything you do, making you a manifestation of realism and a way to convey how reality truly is felt and lived. But because of this, your mind is a mixture of hyper-attentive and inattentive at the same time. You exhibit an overwhelming indulgence towards ideas or things you presently find engaging, but just as much disregard for those things that lack engagement for you. This can cause problems with distraction and issues with keeping to a lifestyle that’s too predictable.
Your mind can be “a lot” to handle, and this can be both rewarding when it generates a seamless stream of inspirations and very exhausting when it leads to inner and outer chaos and disarray. In the worst cases, this can cause chronic troubles focusing on work or studies, a habit of disregarding protocols and getting into trouble due to impulsivity. At other times this can lead you to be incredibly prolific and creative, generating new material at a rapid, real-time rate. Depending on which form this takes, people may experience you as lively, animated and witty on the one hand, or childish, disruptive and imprudent on the other. But in either case, there is never a dull moment with you. While others may hold themselves back from reality, you plunge forward once you see a promising opportunity, and this can cause your presence to bring a contagious dynamism to those around you.
But this appetite for staying in motion, either literally by traveling or mentally by jumping across interests, can develop into a panicked or anxious need to do so. Problems may arise with staying satisfied with what you have or where you are now. The hunger for novelty develops into restlessness, stress and can be at odds with your own deeper goals, which may require years of temperance and gradual progress that quickly becomes suffocating and imprisoning. Interests and people may be picked up and dropped off quickly – breaking connections in the process. And in times of difficulty, you will be viscerally compelled to stay on the run by avoiding your own anxieties and fears – moving to the next thing as a way to distract or catch the fall – resulting in a personal hollowness accumulating in the background. Questions may crop up related to what the purpose of living is and whether you feel you are living in true alignment to that higher purpose within you. But this may not always be acutely felt, and for the most part you are satisfied with the trade-offs of being a free-spirited, unbound trailblazer.
However, behind your voyaging, or perhaps because of it, will lie an inner yearning to find or make a “home.” In your career, your passions and in love, you’ll struggle for a place to settle – somewhere that evokes absolute belonging – even though you may find it difficult to stumble upon any place that checks all the boxes and which would anchor you to it. This yearning for home will also contain a more abstract aspiration for a holistic, spiritual synchronicity with the cosmos – the call towards a state of being where your life, your body and soul are moving in perfect rhythm with something numinous that exists beyond you. And while this is a frightening idea in some parts of consciousness, it is also the hidden agenda of your unconscious and is a source of idealistic fantasy. Your wanderings are motivated, at heart, to coming across that place that will satisfy all your criteria, give you the right answers, and tie you down happily forever.
Seelie > Unseelie:
As for your emotional disposition, if you are seelie your demeanor will appear naturally vulnerable, gentle and disarming. People may describe you as sensitive, compassionate, and attuned to your femininity. You may radiate out emotions through a whispery voice, a bashfulness of the body and giddy giggles. And although this may provoke a level of criticism from tough-skinned people who don’t understand you, your ability to be open-hearted to life and humanity remains uncompromised. Your attitude remains seelie so long as it is permeable to others, whether voluntarily or not. Thus, the possession of a seelie attitude will cause you to be deeply affected by life in both positive and negative ways, giving rise to acute highs and lows. The capacity to feel radiant joy comes at the cost of also feeling intense sorrows, making you more highly attuned to pain. This same experience of pain will lead to a heightened sense of empathy both for humans and other animal species. In some cases, an affinity develops for nature and the divinity within each living being. This can lead to a nurturing impulse towards plant and animal life.
Unseelie > Seelie:
As for your emotional disposition, if you are unseelie you are far from a sentimentalist and have a more blunt and assertive attitude. You’re not afraid to make critical opinions of others, and to call out lies and hypocrisies where you see them. This can give you an “abrasive” attitude and others may experience you as being touchy and haughty. And while some may see your words as harsh, you ultimately seek fairness and justice which requires forthrightness. You value not beating around the bush, and hearts that express what they truly feel.Yet, your Fi’s sensitivity is never truly gone. Although you prefer to stand your own intellectual ground, your high Fi values will manifest in your personal approaches to life. Rather than approaching matters from a hands-off third person view, it matters in a powerful way that you have a subjective ethical alignment with the topic at hand. You may protest against certain personalities due to a personal disgust felt against them, or may reject hypotheses that are in violation of some essential living ethic. And in this way, you still reveal your Fi’s ethical priority.