This morning I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about my own behavior, and I find myself continually returning to the problems of my own self control, which often turns into a problem with a lack of a calm composure.
When I have discussed this with a few other CT members on the discord server, I often hear this sort of problem linked to…[Read more]
It’s been a month since I wrote an update.
My health, on all fronts, feels as if it is in a major decline, possibly even a nosedive.
I’ve started therapy, and my optimism has given way to pessimism as it really seems true that therapy isn’t abut solving any of the route causes of negative/disruptive behavior so much as it is about treating the…[Read more]
I’ve spent all day running numbers through some budgeting spreadsheets I designed, assessing what life is going to look like after this December.
Here’s what’s going on for anyone that looks over this: Teaching jobs at the collegiate level are about to get real lean in my area.
I’m at a university, and I don’t see a future with myself there, not…[Read more]
Throughout my life I have been thoroughly obsessed with imagery. My obsession with imagery began with fiction, specifically movies, as they provided my imagination with a great framework for images that I could play with. The interaction that takes place between an image and a framework is where we find ourselves in the midst of myth. I know,…[Read more]
Alexander the Less replied to the topic The Metaphysics of 'F' (B) by Will Herberg, Martin Buber in the forum Spirituality & Philosophy 8 months, 2 weeks ago
I’m grappling with a way to interact with the posts here, as I want to participate; however, I have to admit, I’m struggling to find my footing with what’s presented here.
Does this mean that the distinction between Biotic and Abiotic is a matter of ontology?
I ask because my approach to “Biotic” and “Abiotic” matters are almost entirely…[Read more]
I’ve felt ill today, and I wrote part of this after a 5-hour nap; however, this somehow feels like the most open and honest I’ve been in a while.
Please forgive any mistakes and my long-windedness.
1. What are you interested in…? (name as many things as you’d like, and how you came across these interests)
I think the best summary of the cor…[Read more]
Woke up manic this morning.
Now I’ve hit an afternoon low: feeling isolated, hopeless, and helpless.
I didn’t have my journal with me, so I decided to just get it out here.
Maybe to hope that someone somewhere will see something.
At least then I’d know that this is real.
I preface with a prompt for any and all to answer: What, if any, experiences with the Sublime do you have? Please describe them as you see fit.
Now, feel free to respond to the prompt and pass over my rambling.
Personal Encounters with the Sublime
Throughout my life I have often found myself in a state where the immense grandeur of the things t…[Read more]
As someone who lives on the left-hand side of this chart, I’m not so sure.
Jokes aside, it is rare for me to ever achieve a flow state (if I honestly ever have); however, in those few moments that I would consider a flow state, it’s the exciting sensation that everything is coming together. It is as if I can see the most clear, vibrant path to…[Read more]
Alexander the Less replied to the topic [PeJi] What is your relation to Pi and is cereal soup? in the forum Ask a Demographic 8 months, 4 weeks ago
What is your relationship with your Pi function? How does it manifest in your life?
I don’t think about my functions that often… Until you ask a question like this. I decided to review an article from the Model 2 updates to ensure I could speak with some confidence on this matter.
To be direct and short, I am in love with my Pi and revere it in…[Read more]
Survey Results with Note
Firstly, here are my results from my second, well-thought-out responses to the survey. The results are similar to my first go, so I don’t feel I skewed anything dramatically. However, I will happily post my old results upon request.
Perhaps it’s my long-windedness itching for space, but I feel compelled to…[Read more]
Productive day, which is always a welcome change for me, but it turned out to be emotionally exhausting.
A big pile of wins and a big pile of loses, and while that sounds like a good way to balance the scales, it just makes the burden greater.
Listening to music is sometimes all there is to do when it comes to some feelings.
That leads me to the…[Read more]
Establishing a routine has gone well, much better considering that the whole family is on board with the change.
I think we all needed it.
Things are getting a little better with my class as well, especially after I was sent a random email thanking me for making the class enjoyable. That’s the sort of feedback that will help me carry on and…[Read more]
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